REMINISCENCES The Initiation of Swadeshi THE Swadeshi Movement of
1905 in Earlier
preparations and abortive attempts there had been galore, with results that
counted for little. This huge mammoth mass of humanity lay inert, like Kumbhakarna of the epic story, for hundreds of years. Here and there once in a
while an attempt had been made to pour into its ears fiery words of awakening,
like: Who would live a life bereft of all freedom, Who would care so to live? or, In this And the foreigner rules here supreme! and, But In sheer desperation, the
poet had exclaimed: Unless the
women of This land
of ours will never awaken.
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the Sepoy Mutiny of 1857 was truly our freedom's battle, it was no more than a
scratch on a solid block of stone. A few shots fired, one or two murders (like
those of the Chapekar brothers) – the whole thing had the dimensions of a flea-bite. But
what was this happening now? All on a sudden, almost overnight, the dark
accumulation of centuries was shaken off, and with the speed of lightning, The Mother
was up on her feet. Over the entire land there
passed a mighty flood, an earthquake shook all. We looked on in wonder, lifted
our voices in splendid chorus: We know not
when, O Mother, out of the heart of You suddenly revealed yourself in your strange beauty. Our eyes cannot turn their gaze from you, O Mother. The doors
have swung wide open in the golden temple. Almost
overnight again, how very different we became from what we had been as
individuals! We used to be just humdrum creatures, most ignorant and inert; now
we became conscious and alert, our lives acquired a
meaning, an aim, a purpose. We used to move in the traditional ruts, dull and
desperate. Instead of that our lives now got a cohesion,
an orientation. Borne along the current and driven with the crowd, the most one
could hope for in the past was to become a Deputy Magistrate or Professor, a
Doctor or Advocate, worldly men of sufficient means. In a moment, all this got
topsy-turvey, our lives were rent in twain as if by an
earthquake. There lay across the chasm the deathlike life of the dead past, and here loomed a life of the present that faced the
future with new duties.
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the British must
be driven out, In
our country, it has not been at all a rare thing for an individual to arrive at
a turning point in his life which makes him leave the comforts of home and go
out in search of something higher; such an event may be counted among the
familiar and commonplace. But a whole nation rushing away from its old moorings
in search of the unknown – this was a rather extraordinary spectacle. Something
like it had been seen during the French Revolution, in the storming of the
Bastille, for example, but the Indian awakening had a different form and
character. I
myself attended a number of meetings, particularly at Hedua, in Panti's Math
and
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be pardoned by his countrymen. And the other thing I remember was the sweet
musical rhythm that graced the entire speech. This was the first time I saw him
with my own eyes and heard him. The
events of another day come to mind. Perhaps it was on the occasion of the first
declaration of Boycott, on
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date. There was a musical soirée at the residence of one of
Dilip's relatives; it was at his uncle's I believe. I too was among the
invitees and there was a fairly big crowd. The performers of the evening were
to be a virtuoso, one of the well-known ones though I forget the name, and our
Sahana. A question arose: who would sing first, Sahana or the virtuoso? It was
agreed to have Sahana first and the virtuoso to follow; after all, a master
must have the last word! Sahana finished her songs and now it was the master's
turn. But he dropped a bombshell! He said, "One cannot sing anything after
that, it would fall flat!" He did sing, though, after a while…. Those were
the days indeed. Now to resume the thread of my narrative. During the
holidays I was back in my home town of Awake, O
men of and so on. Perhaps
it was in October, there was a day of special oath-taking. The day was to be a
day of complete fasting, no smoke should appear over the top of any house, any house showing signs of smoke would be marked in black
for treachery. I too undertook a complete fast on that day – the first and the
last time I have ever done such a thing. I did not even touch a drop of water
during the twenty-four hours. But that did not keep me indoors doing nothing. I
roamed the streets as usual, shouting "Bande Mataram" with the
processions. The vital being in us, in its enthusiasm and excitement, cares
not a whit for anything. Something
rather out of the ordinary came to pass one day. There was an order served on
the town as a whole and on certain individuals in particular, forbidding all
processions.
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procession or join in one. In defiance
of the order – defying orders was part of the programme of those days – groups
of young boys came out and roamed about the streets singing. But that was all
they did, there was no occasion for any breach of the peace save the
disturbance that their shouts might have caused. Nevertheless, the 'Bande Mataram'
cry in itself was in the official view a symbol of resistance, of violence and
atrocity. So the police soon rushed after us, ordering us to disperse. We left
the main road and gathered in a garden-like empty space by the roadside. Many
had left, but about a hundred – I was among that number – squatted down. The
police sub-inspector Raicharan arrived on the scene with a mighty mien,
accompanied by a few constables. As he kept on touching each of us on the head
by turns, he muttered in his inimitable English, "You arrest, you
arrest." We were taken to the Magistrate's bungalow, and as the day drew
to a close we were released .on bail. The case came up before the court. The
ringleader of our group had been Atul Gupta. Our counsel pleaded on his behalf
that he was a man of position – he was at the time a student of the M.A. class –
and should therefore be provided with a chair instead of having to stand on
the dock. The magistrate took no notice and dismissed the plea. Atul Gupta's
father happened to be a prominent nationalist of the town and the order
banning processions had been served in his house. This had the effect of
doubling or trebling the seriousness of Atul's offence; for he was an educated
man, he claimed to be a leader, what he had done was done with full knowledge
and deliberately. Hence the punishment he received was the heaviest of us all,
a fine of a hundred rupees. Thus he became a marked man, and it stood in his
way when in afterlife his name was considered for a judgeship of the High
Court. There could be no place for him as a Judge in the
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or emoluments. We had in our group another person
considerably older than all of us. We used to call him a member of the vagabond
company, as he did no work or studies. He was asked by the Court, "What is
your occupation?" In order to keep up his dignity and position, he replied,
"General merchant." The Magistrate took him at his word and awarded a
fine of fifty rupees. Fifty rupees! But the poor fellow was not even worth
five. I for my part might have escaped, as I was a mere boy, but I was fired
twenty-five rupees. The reason was that when they asked me if I had been aware
of the Government order, I said without any hesitation that most certainly I
was. A deliberate defiance of the law! That was an unpardonable offence.
Afterwards, during the Alipore Bomb case, this was cited against me on behalf
of the prosecution in order to prove that I was an old offender. But the judge
of the Alipore court, Beachcroft, had rather taken a fancy to me. He did not
take any note of this point and dismissed it as school-boy bravado. Nevertheless,
that confession of mine had been dubbed by many at the time an act of
foolishness, as they said, had I but mentioned that I knew nothing of the
Government order, they would have let me off without further ado. My answer was
that I was embarking on a good and noble venture, how could I start off with a
lie? I
have referred above to sub-inspector Raicharan. An ordinary sub-inspector, he
was nonetheless an interest colourful personality, exercising considerable
power and influence as a strong man. Immediately after our so-called
"arrest", when he came to know who I was, he blurted out "So you
are Rajanibabu's son? But why didn't you tell me earlier? I would have let you
off. Now I can't do anything about it, it is too late." He knew my father
very well and had been a sub-inspector at Nilphamari as well. As I was saying,
sub-inspector Raicharan was a man with an individuality.
I can still picture him riding at a gallop, his chest proudly thrust forward,
the tail of his horse flying at the
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in front his beard reaching to the chest, puffed up by the wind and parted in
two. His mount too was a well-known race-horse of the town. They used to hold
races in the huge meadow near the Collector's office – we called it the
Collectorate Math. It was Raicharan's horse that always came first; he was his
own jockey. Thus it was that I received a new initiation in my life. Within
a short while I discovered that my mind had taken a completely different turn.
Studies offered no longer an attraction, nor did the ordinary life in the
world. To serve the country, to become a devoted child of the Mother, for ever
and a day, this was now the only objective, the one endeavour. What would that
imply? It
implied that one must give up everything else: studies of course, and parents
and relatives, all. I felt it was my duty to keep my parents informed of this
irrevocable decision of mine. I thought it would be an act of treachery towards
them if I were to do anything so drastic without their knowledge. There was,
no doubt, the old maxim of the sages, yad-ahar-eva virajet, tad-ahar-eva
pravrajet, "one must leave one's home the day one feels the
attachments cease to bind." The Buddha did that, Chaitanya did that,
though Shankara wanted to arrive at an understanding with his mother first. I
thought I should now break the news to my father. I distinctly remember the
scene. I was then aged seventeen and a student of the Third Year, not exactly a
kid, you see. One evening, as my father rested in bed after his dinner, I came
and sat by his side. I had come determined to tell him, but there was a little
hesitation about the way of putting it. I could not obviously just blurt out.
"I am going to leave home in order to do patriotic work." At last, I
managed to put it like this, for we had a deep respect for our father: "I
shall not be studying any more at the
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with that one sentence. My father listened to me and then he began his
discourse: "Whatever you do, you should do after a good deal of thought.
Never do anything under a sudden impulse, for that might later give you cause
for regrets. First, you must remember that you are the eldest son in the
family. We are getting on in age and you have younger brothers and sisters of
whom it is incumbent on you to take charge, or else they would find themselves
thrown out on the streets. Secondly, if you want to serve your country, that is
a good thing and I do not stand in your way. But if you can succeed in becoming
a somebody, in learning and position, then you would
be able to do much better and bigger things, wouldn't you? You don't have to go
very many years, at the most two or three, to finish your education. Once you
acquire a decent position in life, you will not need to be just a common
worker; you can, with your learning and intellectual gifts, become one of the
leaders. Look at Atul Gupta, for instance. He didn't have to give up his studies, he has just done his M.A. and is now reading Law.
He has acquired a name and some fame and will be able to work for the country
ten times better as a man of position. And besides, there is another thing. If
you feel a true urge for renunciation, like Shankara or Chaitanya, that is
another matter, for that would add lustre to our family. But you must first
look into yourself carefully to see if you have developed in yourself that
strength and capacity. If it is just the caprice of a moment, then there will
be no end of regrets afterwards..." He
went on in this strain for some time. I sat silent and motionless like a block
of stone. But I felt a sense of release within: I had said what I wanted to
say, done my duty. And as to my decision, that would be
unshaken, "as long as shone a sun and a moon", yavaccandra-divakarau. I
was now reminded of the story of Parvati in the Kumarasambhava of Kalidasa.
Mahadeva comes in disguise to beguile her mind. He says, "What you have
set your heart on is but
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creature. Is it meet to have such a low despicable
thing for a husband?” And Parvati answer back, “You may say what you like, but
my mind is set, it will not be shaken.” The mind had settled on its one
attraction, mamatra bhavaikarasam manah sthitam, it had now no
other way.
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