Muraripukur - I
AT last I made up my mind
finally to take the plunge, that I must now join the A little while ago, Prafulla Chakravarti had come and joined. Both of us belonged to Rungpore, both were of nearly the same age, and intimate friends. This too pushed me to my decision. I had already taken a vow about a year ago, in front of a picture of Kali at a secret ceremony at dead of night, a vow written out in blood drawn from the chest, that I should dedicate my life to the whole-hearted service of the Motherland. With me there was a companion, and also a local leader who had read out the oath. This leader became a Sannyasin later on and rose to be the head of a Math; he has since given up his body, so I have heard. My companion of that day is still alive. He did not give up the world and in fact became a very successful man; at present he is enjoying his rest in retirement. I
lived in a students' Mess, one that had acquired quite a name. Among the
inmates were Atul Gupta, Charu Bhattacharya (late of the Visvabharati), and a
little before my time there was Naresh Chandra Sengupta. In my first year of
College, Atul Gupta was in his fourth year, Charu Bhattacharya in his fifth
and Naresh Sengupta had just passed out. I happened once to set foot in the
room he used to occupy and there I found scattered about the floor a few pages
torn Page – 336 out of a note-book which read very much like love letters. This seemed to me a little strange, but later I realised these were some pages from the manuscript of one of his novels. This
decision to choose my path came while I was in my Fourth Year. That I would
definitely join the Gardens was conveyed to Barin by Prafulla. He had already
told him about my antecedents, so one day I received a call – Barin would see
me, as if at an interview for a post. Escorted by Prafulla, I arrived at his
residence in This
happened to be my first meeting with Barin. He received me with great kindness
and had me seated next to him. I cannot now recall the details of the
conversation we had, but perhaps there was nothing much to remember. One thing
however I distinctly remember. He asked me if I had read the Gita. I said I had
read it in parts. He handed me a copy and asked me to read aloud. I began
reciting "Dharmakhetre Kurukhetre..." in a pure and undiluted Bengali
style. He stopped me and cried out, "That won't do. One doesn't read
Sanskrit here in the Bengali style. Listen, read like this." He gave a
recital in the Hindi style, that is, with the pronunciation current in the
other parts of That was my first lesson in Sanskrit pronounced in the Sanskrit way. Later I have heard the correct Sanskrit accent so often from Sri Aurobindo himself. I have heard him recite from the Veda, from the Upanishads, from the Gita. Today, I too do not read from Sanskrit in the Bengali way, even when reading from an article in Bengali. It
was settled that I would join the Gardens and stay there, But I did not give up
my room at the Mess. My books and papers and furniture – a bedstead and the
table-lamp, for there was no electric light in those days – were all left in Page – 337 charge of my room-mate, and I paid only an occasional visit. I attended College as well, but at infrequent intervals. College studies could no longer interest me. It
was about this time that I hovered around the newly founded Let
me then narrate this earlier story in the present connection. I had just come
to Page – 338 ease in that atmosphere, I had an impression it was all fine talk and dry debate, purely academic, one would say. Satish Chandra had no doubt wanted to use this as a means of forming the character and not merely as an intellectual training, a way of moulding the life, something that had been missing in our college education. I do not know to what extent he succeeded in actual fact. This was about the middle of 19°4. It was three years later, about the middle of 1907, that I met Satish Chandra again. He could not have remembered about me, nor did I remind him. He asked me, "You are a student of literature and philosophy. Why do you want to read Science?" – "I have read physics and chemistry for my F.A. (that is, Intermediate). I have a special attraction for those subjects, that is why." However, the matter did not proceed very far, for I was getting more and more engrossed in the life at the Gardens. Almost
about the same period, I had thought of another childish plan, again in connection
with the making of a bomb: the thing had so much got into my head. I was a
student of the Let
me say a few words about our life there. But may I preface it with an amusing
incident? I have said that my attendance at College had been getting more and
more irregular. This attracted the notice of some of my class-fellows. One
day, I found one of their representatives arriving "on deputation"
to meet me at the .Mess. He began Page – 339 questioning me as an intimate friend and well-wisher with a show of great kindness and affection. "Tell me," he said, "what has been the matter with you? What makes you keep away from College? Has there been a mishap somewhere? You have been such a good student and 'so regular in your attendance, what could have come over you all on a sudden?" I could guess what he must have been suspecting: surely it had something to do with my morals – chercher la femme! Was that the case here? Complaints and entreaties having failed, he finally sought to console and encourage me with these words, "Don't you worry; If Calcutta does not suit you, let us leave the place and go somewhere else. The two of us could stay together, and if we worked hard for, say, three or four months, we would get ready for the examination without fail. Our absence from College would make no difference." To this I replied in a grave tone, "'Very well, I shall think it over." Lest there should be similar attacks in the future, I practically gave up the Mess. One would not say that life at the Gardens had settled down to a definite routine yet, for we had just begun. There were about a dozen or fourteen of us in all. There were occasional visitors from outside who would come for a short stay and then go back to their work. Naren Goswami had come like that for a couple of days, so had Bhavabhushan who later became a Sannyasin. We began with readings from the Gita and this became almost a fixed routine where everybody took part. Even the local Inspector of Police expressed a desire to join in these readings with us Brahmacharins. But he had to pay dearly for that. He did not realise that these were no ordinary lessons in the Gita but served as a facade for our preparations for the bomb. For this he was, as we heard, later dismissed from the service. The poor fellow had wanted to acquire a bit of spiritual merit which seemed to turn against him. A
beginning however was made to introduce some kind of discipline and
organisation. It was decided that the entire Page – 340 group should be formed
into two sections, one "civil", the other "military". The
"military" section was to include the active members and the others
were to serve as auxiliaries. The idea originally was to build up an armed
force, a regular army in fact, with its full complement of weapons and
equipment and trained by regular drills. The "civil" side was to deal
with external work like journalism, propaganda and recruitment. The Yugantar,
and later the Navashakti, became our publicity organs. I was not much attracted
by this "civil" side; I wanted to become one of the
"military" men. Prafulla who was one of those dreamy,
"introvert", intellectual types and a good writer and speaker took up
the "civil" work. They used to say with a touch of humour, no doubt,
that he was the Mazzini and I was his Garibaldi. But no provision had yet been
made to give this Garibaldi the necessary training in military drill or the use
of weapons. So, I had to begin with the science of warfare rather than its art.
Barin was at that time writing his series on The Principles of Modern Warfare
for the Yugantar. I too began my study of the subject. I started going to the
Imperial Library (now the National Library) in During my last days in College, I used to study Mazzini in place of King John or The Faerie Queene. One day I suddenly discovered that they had removed my Mazzini from the shelves of the library, and even the Life and Death of Socrates by Plato had disappeared. These books were no doubt supposed to turn the heads of our Indian students! About
this time, I had been several times to my home town of Page – 341 the story of how subject
nations aspiring for freedom began their work in secret. In it the story of At the
Rungpore Library I came across another book, namely, Gibbon's famous Decline
and Fall of the Now, to come back to the Gardens and our organisational system. Nothing could be arranged by way of an armed force, for our work itself took another turn. A military organisation Page – 342 was now to give
place to a terrorist organisation. In the earlier stages, we did not have much
faith in terrorist methods, for, as we had seen about In
the event, it was none of these methods that brought us independence. Indian
independence has come in another way, the inscrutable way of As
I was saying, we gave up militarism and turned towards the terrorist methods.
There had awakened in the country a keen demand and aspiration: must we bear in
silence and give no answer to this tyranny and oppression that seemed to go on
increasing day by day? So, we started getting ready for a fitting reply. It brought
in the first place a greater courage to the general public, though it remained
doubtful if it helped relieve the oppression. And secondly, it gave some
satisfaction to men. Thus we directed our efforts to shooting at the Lieutenant
Governor, derailing his train, and assassinating tyrants in the official ranks.
Governor Andrew Fraser, the District Magistrates Allen and Kingsford, Mayor
Tardivel of Chandernagore, these became the targets of the terrorists. The
members of the One
of the activities of the Gardens, apart from the attempts to manufacture bombs,
had been to procure and Page – 343 distribute guns and rifles
and pistols. Purchase, theft and loot were the three methods of procurement. In
this manner one might gather materials for terrorist purposes, but it could
hardly meet the needs of an armed force. At the Gardens there was some shooting
practice too, with pistols. The trunk of a mango tree had been riddled with
bullets – the police could very easily find that out later. This reminds me of
Prafulla Chaki. He used to say taking a revolver in his hand, "I for Now
let me come out with some of my own exploits. I did not, as I have said, want
to be one of the law-abiding "civilians"; my aim was to be a
"military man" with his law of the bomb. But first I must prove my
mettle in that line. So, they set me a test. I was to carry a pistol and
deliver it to a gentleman in Jalpaiguri. You seem to laugh at the instance of
my "military" ability. But perhaps you cannot now imagine what it
meant in those days to carry a real pistol. The police had its secret agents
all over the place always on the look-out for victims. If you happened to be a
young man, if you dressed in a manner even slightly out of the ordinary, if
there was anything the least suspicious about your movements that might attract
attention, it was enough. If the police came and gave you a search and found a
lethal weapon like a revolver in your possession, you would get at least seven
years – of that you might rest assured. Page – 344 Nevertheless, I managed to
carry the weapon in a perfectly easy and natural manner all the way to Now
that I had passed the first test almost without effort, there came a second
hurdle to cross. Will you be shocked to hear that I was to join a gang of
dacoits and take part in a real dacoity? "Very well," I said to
myself, for everything is fair in love and war – although I did feel somewhat
uncomfortable even without my knowing it, for there was something about the
whole affair that was not palatable to me. But this had been decided upon as
one of our methods of collecting funds, for the money that came from gifts was
not sufficient, and people rather shied of making gifts for the work of such
secret societies. So we had to fix on loot. The mail runner was to be waylaid
and his bags looted, somewhat far away in a place in the The
household arrangements at our Gardens were of the most simple, natural and
unpretentious sort, the aim being to avoid all unnecessary complications and
save our time and labour. The cooking was done perhaps only once a day and
almost every day it was Khichri. For the second meal, something ready-made
bought from the market was found Page – 345 enough. We did the cooking ourselves and washed the dishes. The dishes and utensils were not of brass, they were all earthenware vessels, I believe. And the washing was done in the waters of the pond. What kind of pond it was could only be described by a Kalidasa, but perhaps some idea could be had from Bankimchandra's description of the Bhima tank: "The dark shades of the palms dancing to the rhythms of the dark waters" and so on. That is to say, it had more of weeds and mud than water, not to speak of the fish and the frogs and other animal species, including a fair complement of serpents and things. But to us it seemed good enough and we used to take our dips there with great glee. In fact I had my first lessons' in swimming in that very pool. There were actually two of them and not one, and it would be difficult to decide which was the more "untouchable" of the two. The gardens around were in an equally poor condition. They were no gardens at all, for all was primitive jungle, a tangle of shrubs and trees and creepers, with all sorts of insects and reptiles roaming within. And the house where we were supposed to live was in ruins.¹ But
in spite of all, the place was absolutely quiet and silent, a reason being that
it was practically outside the city limits. The lire we lived in such
surroundings could be compared with that of nomads. The strange thing is that
despite such irregular habits, or rather the habitual irregularities of our
life there, we never fell ill. The abundance of vitality and the enthusiasm and
joy kept at bay all attacks of disease. It was very similar to the kind of life
we lived here in ¹ I have been there once
later. It was no longer the old Gardens but a ploughed field. There was no
trace of the jungle left, it had all been dug up. The
pools too had been drained and filled and the house razed to the ground. The
British authorities had dug up every inch of the area to see if any weapons
might have been kept hidden anywhere. I found in the case of the Yugantar
office also which stood next to the Page – 346 you live? And you keep him (Sri Aurobindo) too like this?" Perhaps some day I may give you a picture of that life of ours, that life of utter freedom which looked so rustic in the eyes of "civilised" people. Let
me end this story today with something nice and sweet. It was during my stay at
the Gardens that I had my first meeting and interview with Sri Aurobindo. Barin
had asked me to go and see him, saying that Sri Aurobindo would be coming to
see the Gardens and that I should fetch him. Manicktolla was in those days at
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